Saturday, May 31, 2008

小孩子







从来就不知自己会如此的喜欢小孩!这两个月里,一直在接触着小孩子,令我慢慢的喜欢了他们!看着他们天真活泼的笑脸,就会把所有的烦恼都忘了!虽然,在这两个月里,所面对的压力真得很大!让我深深地觉得,为人师表并不是想象中如此的容易!每个学生都需要不同的方式来教导,更何况是这些只是一,二,三,四年级的学生呢!好怕会误人子弟,也好怕无法好好的教导他们,还好他们还算是很乖的学生了!





有时回到家,会向朋友抱怨说某某个学生如何把我气的跳脚,但多数的时间,他们都是让我觉得好笑又好气!虽然,六月一日起,我就再也不是一位老师了,但是我还是会继续地关心他们的,因为他们让我知道原来我也是可以如此的有耐心的去教导一个人!我的学生们,你们一定要加油哦!




Wednesday, May 14, 2008

亲爱的父母

我们时常都觉得父母亲不了解我们,不疼我们!觉得他们不会站在我们的立场想一想!那我们是否也有站在他们的立场想一想呢?我们是否也了解他们,真心的疼他们,关心他们呢?


我们总是埋怨他们对我们的严厉,不知道为什么他们可以为了一件很小很小的过错,而把我们骂地狗血淋头,也不了解为什么他们可以因为几句词语,几个动作,而鞭打我们!现在的我已渐渐的了解这些动作背面的原因了!


人总是很奇怪的!但我还在父母身边的时候,我们永远不会想着去了解父母对我们的所作所为,父母对我们所说的每一句话!现在离开父母的怀抱,一个人生活在没有父母唠叨的地方,但却不是想象般如此快乐!也许刚刚开始时,的确很开心,但渐渐的却想念起父母的唠叨!
以前总觉得他们很无聊,每次向他们讨零用钱时,他们一定要先唠唠叨叨的教训一场后,才肯给零用钱,既浪费时间也浪费唾液!他们总爱说我是个败家女,因为给我多少,我就用多少,永远不会懂得什么是省!也不会知道赚钱的辛苦!讲真的,我还真的不知道!
自从爸爸的公司面对问题后,再也不可以随心所欲地向他们要钱了!刚开始时,还是不会想,一样的任性,依旧要钱就和他们讨,依旧乱乱花钱!但当我知道他们宁愿自己辛苦,也不想让独自生活的我辛苦时,我才真正的了解他们对我的爱!了解为什么他们每次给我钱时,总是要骂骂一两句,才甘愿!他们的骂,其实是希望我了解家里的处境,希望我生性,但我却一直又一直得让他们失望!
将要踏入社会工作了,父母却比任何人来的紧张!看着他们带我去买正式服装,关心我未来公司的运作,还有我和公司所签的合约等等,我慢慢的了解我父母对我表达关爱的方式了!这一厢骂你浪费,不会想,那一厢,却给你你所需要,所想要的东西!
希望我不会再是父母的负担,反之可以帮他们分担他们的压力!

Sunday, April 27, 2008

晴天霹雳

今天听到一则消息,令我感到晴天霹雳!一只以来以为的朋友,原来只是我自作多情!从没想过我在别人眼中是个自私自利的人!一直以来,为了拥有这位朋友,每次在她有问题时都尽力帮她,想出去玩时,也会找她,但不知原来在她心中,我还是一文不值的人!

如果成为好学生,就需要什么都会,那我宁愿自己只是个普通到不能的人!没想到当我告诉她我不会,不知道时,她是认为我是个不愿与他人分享我的知识的人!不会,不知道,就是不会,不知道,难道不会要说会,不知道要说知道吗?为什么人就是如此的幼稚呢?别人不会,就以为别人不要教导你,真是可笑的行为!

当她是朋友,所以找她出去,却不知原来在她心中,我只是个只会找她出去玩的人,在她面对问题时,我却袖手旁观!如果我真的是位袖手旁观的人,我就不会向她分析是她不会的theory,不明白的地方!

到底谁比较自私呢?一两次得不会,就把之前的是给忘了!不知该高兴吗?原来在别人的眼中,我应该是么都要会的!不应该不会的!可笑!爸妈从来就没要求我一定要样样都会!为何在别人眼里,我的不会,是自私的呢?

朋友真的是如此的吗?到底是谁无法和谁成为朋友呢?到底是谁的人格有问题呢?脾气不好的我,从来就不敢在大家跟前发脾气,每次把不开心的心情压延在心中,还是无法得到大家的友情!到底是我的问题,还是你们的问题呢?

Friday, April 18, 2008

Thesis

What is the thesis?
How to write the good thesis?
What the contents that I need to include into my thesis?
The questions stated above can used to express my feeling now!

The time is passing faster,
and it will not wait for everyone,
but how the normal human can chase the time's steps?
so hard to chase!

The presentation for the finay year project is coming within the short time,
but anything also not done yet!
Thesis, not completed!
Presentation slides, not starting yet!
The system, still in the unstable state!
How I can have the final year project presentation?
What I can present to the elevaluater?

Never expect that I will do all of my things in the last minute!
Although this is the style for me while have the exam!
But for the final year project,
I had started very very eary,
thought that I can finish all the things before the presentation,
but why all the things run aways from my expectation?

Never expect that my system will fail!
Never expect that I can't come out the full thesis!
Never expect that I don't know how to do the presentation slides!
Never expect that I run away from all my schedule!



Saturday, April 12, 2008

Time

What is the time?
The time can pass very fast, also can pass very slow!
When nothing to do at that day, the time is very slow!
When has many things to do, then the time will be very fast!
Sometimes feel that 24 hours is not enough to use,
but sometimes 24 hours is think that equal as 1 year!

Prefer the time is balancing!
Has thing to do, but also has the time to rest!
Dislike do nothing whole day,
also dislike keep doing the thing whole thing!

Do not know either I greedy or not?
But I really feel that my time arrangement so worse!
Sometimes can do the thing until no time to sleep!
Sometimes can has many many time to waste!

What that I actually want?
Free time or rushing time?
So confuse!
Who can help me?